Time After Time

Journey with me,
Side by side,
Love me, hold me, take me higher
Just like I hold you inside.
For it is sometimes calming,
Sometimes like fire.
This is my life
With you by my side.

Immortal
Now I know.
I know now.
I will not, I cannot,
That I will never die
With me in your memories.

O! how great is love
And how little am I.

Beethoven's Immortal Beloved

The First Letter
July 6, in the morning

--My angel, my all, my very self - Only a few words today and at that with pencil (with yours) - Not till tomorrow will my lodgings be definitely determined upon - what a useless waste of time - Why this deep sorrow when necessity speaks - can our love endure except through sacrifices, through not demanding everything from one another; can you change the fact that you are not wholly mine, I not wholly thine - Oh God, look out into the beauties of nature and comfort your heart with that which must be - Love demands everything and that very justly - thus it is to me with you, and to your with me. But you forget so easily that I must live for me and for you; if we were wholly united you would feel the pain of it as little as I - My journey was a fearful one; I did not reach here until 4 o’clock yesterday morning. Lacking horses the post-coach chose another route, but what an awful one; at the stage before the last I was warned not to travel at night; I was made fearful of a forest, but that only made me the more eager - and I was wrong. The coach must needs break down on the wretched road, a bottomless mud road. Without such postilions as I had with me I should have remained stuck in the road. Esterhazy, traveling the usual road here, had the same fate with eight horses that I had with four - Yet I got some pleasure out of it, as I always do when I successfully overcome difficulties - Now a quick change to things internal from things external. We shall surely see each other soon; moreover, today I cannot share with you the thoughts I have had during these last few days touching my own life - If our hearts were always close together, I would have none of these. My heart is full of so many things to say to you - ah - there are moments when I feel that speech amounts to nothing at all - Cheer up - remain my true, my only treasure, my all as I am yours. The gods must send us the rest, what for us must and shall be -
Your faithful LUDWIG.

The Second Letter
Evening, Monday, July 6

--You are suffering, my dearest creature - only now have I learned that letters must be posted very early in the morning on Mondays to Thursdays - the only days on which the mail-coach goes from here to K. - You are suffering - Ah, wherever I am, there you are also - I will arrange it with you and me that I can live with you. What a life!!! thus!!! without you - pursued by the goodness of mankind hither and thither - which I as little want to deserve as I deserve it - Humility of man towards man - it pains me - and when I consider myself in relation to the universe, what am I and what is He - whom we call the greatest - and yet - herein lies the divine in man - I weep when I reflect that you will probably not receive the first report from me until Saturday - Much as you love me - I love you more - But do not ever conceal yourself from me - good night - As I am taking the baths I must go to bed - Oh God - so near! so far! Is not our love truly a heavenly structure, and also as firm as the vault of heaven?

The Third Letter
Good morning, on July 7

--Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

Wild horses

I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out,
Is this my life I'm wondering

It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
There's greener pastures I'm thinking about
wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared

Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses.

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare-back, care-free
Along the shore

If only that someone was me
Jumping head-first, head-long
Without a thought
To act and damn the consequence

How I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear, but not feel scared

Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

I wanna run too.
recklessly abandoning me my self before you

I wanna open up my heart tell him how I feel

Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like I'm longing too
I wanna run with the wild horses,
run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses

I wanna run with the wild horses ..

I, Me and Myself

I am Indian college student in America attending Cox Business School, Southern Methodist University. I am studying to be an Investment Banker, with aspirations of being a Financial Guru ( basically the stock market). I am the only child hence I have been spoilt rotten.

Like most people, it's a complicated thing to describe me. Some might say it's along the lines of being an "acquired taste." Others might more correctly classify it as, "the pain in the backside that some people are willing to tolerate." Most likely, I am just inimitable, like many others. But I'll do the best I can to describe myself with words.

I'd say that I am an eclectic amalgamation of many seemingly paradoxical things. This can be exemplified in both my seemingly endless persistance on many topics and arguments, as well as my careful cautiousness on other topics and arguments. This is largely due to how astute I am of the topic: more knowledge, more persistant; less knowledge, obviously more cautious. I also have times of obsessive compulsions regarding certain things (mostly just food, however).

Many could qualify my way of talking and thinking about things as prosaic, pithy, or terse. This is both a combination of my feelings that if you're going to say something, say it plainly, simply, and honestly and to not just overflower everything without really saying anything. It can of course come off sometimes as being angered, mean-spirited, callous, or me just being a malcontent or even a misanthrope. I do try to limit those reactions as much as possible. I just follow the feeling that if I am asked my opinion on something, people will be able to handle hearing it since they are asking me after all. I am not a misanthrope, at least not totally. Just that some people, while I'm sure they live lovely lives and probably have great characteristics, I just cannot tolerate.

I know that I am quite a smart person on most things, and also am exceedingly "imaginative". I do feel that I am funny, though everyone thinks I dont even know the meaning of it. My humor would probably best be labeled very teaseful and sarcastic, though it is quite fun to just plainly laugh at the silliness of things lots of times.

I am an almost atheist( note: slightly spiritual not religious) . I don't say that to mean that I am trying to subjugate all religions of the world (though I do think it would be a good start, I'm not actively doing it). I simply say this underscore that when I say I am an atheist, I mean just that: I am an atheist. I'm not an agnostic. I'm not a disgruntled Hindu. I'm an atheist. Or I guess I am bright. Because of my rejection of religion, I tend to treat many things with what people might call an irreverent perspective.

All in all I am just another ordinary clutz who is bored of life.

Oh and I am hungry all the time

*bows out*

--taken

Do we really deserve what we get?

Do not let your fire go out .
Spark that ever lights up a spark.
And the hopeless swamps that are not quite,
And not yet,
And not at all.

Do not let the hero in your soul perish.
Do not hang on to the frustration of life you deserved and never been able to reach.
The world you desire can be one.
It exists!
It is real!
It is possible!
For it is YOURS and only YOURS!

My Obituary

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there I did not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am a diamond glince of snow
I am the sunlight on the ripened grain
I am the gentle autumn's rain
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there I did not die...

remembrance of my days as a captain..

A character without confidence remains a candle without a wick for then there exists no light and no benefit, neither to itself nor to others, for without confidence the best qualities will remain unearthed, lost in the dark. Therefore does it follow that my major strength is my confidence and ability to compete at higher levels in the different facets of my life, be it in the sphere of culture, academics or sports. Confidence and self-belief are areas that are showcased the best in a competitive environment and I firmly believe that competition and the ability to face challenges bring out the best in me.
The post of ‘Games Captain’ was a recognition awarded precisely for my abilities on the field be it in the successful execution of the game in itself or the spirit of sportsmanship, a lesson every competitor must face at some point or the other. The post has given me an opportunity to better exploit my skills and capabilities while developing a sense of understanding and leadership. It has taught me the important lesson of patience while managing people of different tendencies and it was the task of molding the myriad perspectives into a single and unified force that remained my true challenge. The other challenge however was to understand the requirements and ambitions of the student body and how in the capacity of their representative would I be able to fulfill them. A captain has many a hat to don and many a role to essay thus, did I in my role as leader have to maintain discipline while living up to the expectations of my teachers.
Inter-school and inter-college events required a different approach; innovative ideas were the need of the day be it in conducting events or the process of putting our best foot forward. Good opportunities to represent the collective talents of the school had to be identified in which we could best demonstrate our strengths and even hone our weaknesses to potential skills. The abilities of the students had to be kept in mind lest we set the stage for disappointment in overestimating our talents and in the atmosphere of enthusiasm this was also a major challenge.
Organizing the smaller events in the beginning of the season proved to be a training ground to perfect my skills in marketing and people management, which proved useful especially in the execution of the ‘Annual School Sports Meet’, where sponsors were sought after and best appropriation of the funds the number one priority. Thought processes and creative talent were greatly enhanced during the duration of the met while giving me an opportunity to better understand people and relationships in my capacity as a leader.
Success alone does not make a person whole; I believe that it is that which we give back to society that ultimately completes our lives. I do not believe in ‘chequebook’ charity alone but the physical presence that proves to be comforting to many of the underprivileged and destitute of our world. It was the truth of the above that I learnt while being a part of the school outreach programme, when we visited a home for the aged and where people yearned not for our bank deposits but for a word or look that said we cared. The experience I believe has made me a better person as it has made me appreciate the finer things in life such as love and family, it has also added to my knowledge on how to deal with different people and I believe that I am a better communicator because of the same. Another outreach programme acquainted me with people from another spectrum—prisoners in a penitentiary. The interaction with the hardened inmates has had a critical influence on the way I view the multitude of personalities that exist in our society today.
I believe that I can better understand problems that I have fortunately never personally experienced because of the above while again developing a keener sense of understanding as to the different kind of personalities, leading to the cultivation of better relationships with the same. Both experiences have helped me perfect my skills in people management, which I believe, will help me play an important role in the University, particularly in activities that involve teamwork.
Through my experiences as a leader I have realized that life is what we make it. Character and efficiency lend to a person a continuance in whatever that person might undertake while believing in the above I also believe that both contribute to the making of a person and contribute towards all that person may undertake.
In conclusion I would like to dwell on what motivates me in life; I draw inspiration from “Ignited Minds”, a recent book authored by the President of India, Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam and I quote, “why given all our skills, resources and talents we, so obviously capable of being the best, settle for the worst”. The premise that the potential for the best is often squandered is one that I would never want to see manifest in my life; thus, do I expect nothing short of the best from life and all it has to offer while making sure that every opportunity life has to offer is undertaken zealously to ensure a personal best every time.

--kshama