In my life, it has always been the small things
that have really given me the bigger and better smiles, filled my days with
heartwarming happiness and really made living this life worthwhile. It’s like
the sense of achievement of correctly working out a super hard math problem but
ironically nothing in life can be worked out. Really!
You just
got to go with the flow and pray like-your-life-depended-on-it that in the end
life will work itself out.
If you
ever thought about your life as a 15 mark ICSE Board Essay Question, where you
argue both sides of the case, then right now, I would like to rant some shit
straight out of my head . . .
There is
always the Good Times …
The proud
look on your parents’ face when they think you have achieved something, the
little appreciations by the closest of friends, the random thought of your
favorite song lines doing live performances in your head the moment your mum
starts yelling at you, the boy you love talks to you or just gazes at you for
that nano-second eye contact giving your average day the look of a rock
concert, a semi – lazy day when half your brain just wants to day dream and the
other half waits to become the first half, the brilliant smile your grandma
gives you the moment you walk through her doors like that just made her day,
the extra chat with your closest friend after everyone has left the room,
feeling like Superman on a fresh morning followed by Spiderman … Batman … and
ending your day just being human …, the endless roaming on empty roads of an
unknown place where no one comes out, being a part of those typical gossip
sessions where everything gets so incredibly exaggerated resulting in endless
laughs … tummy aches and the not so needed abs development!, eating at your
favorite place and relishing every morsel like it was your last time there, a
sudden shiver down your spine when you hear your favorite beats and you end up
dancing like no ones watching and finally come the times when you have been
really stupid, childish and all those adjectives you thought you had grown out
of and never want to be associated with . . .
Then of
course come the Bad Times …
When you
found out time ran you out, and it has been doing it ever since you started
running with it, when you never had an idea that things you owned started
owning you, friends you loved to be with left without being with you, the boy
you thought about at least once every hour could pass days without you, the
things you are good at came in the way of learning things you weren’t good at,
when you care about your close ones more than anyone else does to their own
ones, when you find a greater comfort in a child’s eyes than the ones within
your own age group, when you think life isn’t a fair deal and it treats
everyone differently, when you know almost everything out there can give you
pain and you have to chose what’s worth that pain . . .
And in the
end, all you have are The Lessons You Learnt Along The Way . . .
When your
faith in God strengthens every he ditches you, when you have stood tall in
every tough time, so that when the happier times finally come you are better
than before . . . And the day will come when it dawns on you that you should
stop asking for things from God because what he can give you is always way more
than what you can ask for . . .
I end this
blog post today with the words of Imogen Heap – Song: Hide & Seek
“ Where
are we? What the hell is going on?
The dust
has only just begun to fall,
Crop
circles in the carpet, sinking feeling.
Spin me
around again and rub my eyes.
This can’t
be happening.
When busy
streets a mess with people
Would stop
to hold their heads heavy”
